Wednesday, April 15, 2015
#FacesOfProstitution .. was great but now Im fucked
I havent posted a blog in AGES.
i guess life got a bit busy... youtube has become more the place i vent and rant and talk shit.
But today i wanted to blog.
It might not make sense.. i may go around in circles. THis writing is more for me just to get stuff out.. its a way of processing shit i guess...
So in the sex industry world here in Australia lots of things have been happening. If you don know what Im talking about, go check out the #FacesOfProstitution hashtag on twitter... its a great campaign that started with the right positive intention by Aussie sex workers.... and now it has been hijacked and twisted and used against us.
Sex workers dont often come out and speak up. Why? Because the moment we do, we put ourselves in danger of being shunned from family and friends, we get attacked by the people who want to end our industry... and this attacking is what i want to talk about today.
I think im a pretty staunch person. Ive lived rough and many wouldnt believe it but im street smart. I left home young, ive done a lot of drugs, hung out with a lot of criminals, heck at one point, if you didnt have a warrant our for your arrest, i would not date you LOL.
I can handle my shit.
These days, i come across like a meek sort of person. A push over. Some have called me wishy washy. I like to think that im a bit more relaxed in life, things dont get on my nerves and make me lose my shit as much as they used to.
I like who i am today.
I would not be friends with the old me.. god, that is the kind of girl i stay faaaaaaar away from now that im old lol. But i dont regret my old self, it is a part of who i am.
And sometimes, when im feeling cornered or a bit vulnerable, i revert back to that old self. I come out in true bogan housing commission trailer park trash style. I have a foul mouth, I fuck shit up and while im in that mode, i dont see anything but my target. Later on i look back and think "Fuck, you could of handled that better" but the truth is, i dont know any other way to handle things when its gets beyond a certain point.
Enough about me, back to my fucking point.
So This campaign has been hijacked. This campaign has been going on for i think 2 weeks. EVERY DAY at least 20 times a day, i check the hashtag to see what new awesome sex worker has posted! Every day. I have tweeted everyday using the hashtag too. The anti's, they have been there from day one also.. small in numbers at first, not enough to warrant caring about...
Until the last few days they have been in overdrive.
Their ammunition now? To post pics of deceased sex workers. Over and over and over. It seems like HUNDREDS. Their photos, theirs names and "killed by johns".
Im not the kind of person that gets "triggers" off stuff. I dont think ive experienced anything that sets me off emotionally... but for some reason, this triggered something inside me. I felt ill. I felt disgusted.
These people are using our passed peers in attempt to fuck us up and prove a point. What point? I dont know.
A lot of the pictures of these women are from long ago. I cant speak for them, but let me tell you, if i ever died at work, i do NOT consent for my pic to be used by antis to end my industry. I DO consent to sex workers using my pics in an attempt to gain full decriminialisation for the industry on a global level.
So after i saw the pics of passed peers, i got angry. I went full houso style and cut loose. How fucking dare they use those photos for their horrible agenda. I tweeted to the people posting the pics, told them how disgusting they are for using those images. That those women were more than just sex workers and their lives should not be used as a tool in their agenda! Maybe in not as nice wording tho lol. Add a few "fucks" in there.
Do they not realise that those people were mostly killed due to the stigma? That they were working under bullshit laws that did not keep them safe?
"killed by stigma? STigma doesnt kill, Johns kill" - is what the anti's say
No... no you are wrong. Stigma does kill. It is stigma that allows a mass murderer to target sex workers because they KNOW the cops will not take sex workers seriously when they are in a country where our work is illegal. The Green River Killer himself said that he knew police and people would not notice if sex workers went missing. We became a target because society allows people to believe that we are not worthy. Our lives dont matter. To kill a whore is not as bad as killing a nurse right? The whore shouldnt have been on the street if she didnt want to be attacked right?
So anyways, i let loose. I said fuck cunt fuck fuck, lots of french... i told anti's to fuck off. I just lost my shit.
Thats not how i wanted to tackle this issue.. but when i saw those pics... i thought that was my invitation to play dirty.
It was only a brief moment of bogan insanity on my part. A good friend pulled me up and said, think of the cause, you dont want to be that crazy hooker... and i stopped. Im so glad she spoke up to me about it, because even that brief moment of houso hell, i look back and regret.
So ... i thought ok.. how do we combat this... we cant stop them using our hashtag and turning our positive campaign into a negative one... what can we do?
The next time i logged into twitter and checked out the hastag, there they were, pic after pic after pic of my passed away peers.
I went on a posting spree. I got links to all my youtube videos and put them in the hastag. I figured, if i could just push the anti posts so far down the page, they would not be seen by people! Yeah! That should work! So i posted my videos.,.. then i searched thru youtube and found inspiring videos by sex workers all ove rthe globe and i started posting them!
I flooded the hashtag with positive sex worker stuff.
I sat back... looked at the hashtag page.. awesome, no sign of dead people.. no sign of their hate....
Later i checked the hashtag again.. oh god.. they were back.. time for round two of flooding their shit off my screen.
It was like a silent victory in my head.. nothing of theirs was deleted, but it was no longer in my face making me feel sick to my stomach.
Ive never met these people, but seeing them there and there faces used as a weapon.. it really affected me in a way ive never felt before. Like in a negative way.... i cant explain it.
Then some of my peers were making comment "They only care about us when we are dead"... this is actually true.
Ive stood up and tried to engage with these people. Ive tried to show them that there are ways to both save the trafficking victims that they want to save AND to keep sex workers safe and with rights. There is a way. But they dont care about sex workers. they only care about "victims" and while i understand they have this need to help people, i dont understand why they cant help us all.... do i need to be a victim before i am considered worthy of helping?
OK.. so then.... this feminist blog makes a post.... telling the world how hookers made them cry.. cos we are cunts like that apparently... they used our pics and our words and made it all about them and how they feel.. they twisted shit, they once again used bullshit arguments .... you can read the crap here- https://realforwomen.wordpress.com/2015/04/14/whats-new-in-individual-empowerment-how-to-make-women-and-men-cry/
This made me kinda upset.. no actually it made me a lot upset... but i dont wana get into that.
They keep bangin on about a "Pimp lobby"" wtf is this?????? I am a private worker.. there aint no pimps here.. and i certainly dont support the idea of pimps, but the moment you are Pro-sex work, you are in the Pimp lobby.. for fucks sake! Where do they get these ideas????
I just seriously cannot fathom why they treat us so poorly. Why they do not listen. Why they cannot see that there are ways to help ALL people in the trade, whether we are in by choice or forced.
And the thing that scares me the most is, because a lot of us cannot come out and speak up, its the ANTI's voices that can be seen and heard over ours..... how the fuck are we going to make change if we keep being silenced by people who dont even know the first thing about the industry!!!!!!!!!!
They are so quick to shut down the thought of full decrim.....
OMG thats another thing! they keep using the term FULL DECRIM when talking about the swedish model. FALSE
FULL DECRIM is when ALL people in the sex industry, workers and clients are not criminals.
The Swedish model decrims the workers but makes our clients CRIMINALS. THIS IS NOT FULL DECRIM. Stop using the term!!!
Also, these anti's get confused with "legalisation" and decrim... its two different things douche bags..
I really think they should educate themselves on the language before they go off all half cocked on social media. YOU ARE NOT EXPERTS.
A mate was talking to me the other day about local council stuff right, and he was saying that if i had to take shit to court, because ive worked in the industry a long time, i would be considered an "EXPERT IN MY FIELD" in that court of law! Dis you hear that? The courts would consider me an expert? Now im not 100% sure of this fact but my mate was pretty adamant that this was true.... so if a court can recognize our expertise, why the FUCK do antis feel they have ANY RIGHT to question us??????
OK i need to get a coffee.. my head hurts.. these anti's have really shown me that they dont give a fuck about really helping people.. they only want to help those that make them look better at church or at the school.. cos you know, bragging about how you "saved a girl who was abused all her life" sounds a lot better than "i helped these sex workers get better working conditions" doesnt it........ pffffft